WHEN Christian Jessie Germar did not see her name in the roster of passers in the 2021 Licensure Examination for Teachers, her world suddenly collapsed.
For about a week, Germar didn’t answer messages and deactivated all her social media handles not to see her friends posting about their success.
“The only thing I had in mind at that time was that I’m not good enough and that I don’t belong here,” Germar said.
After failing the licensure exams, she was puzzled about what was next to her.
Following that incident, Germar entered the Business Process Outsourcing industry with hopes of redeeming herself from the mud.
She spent her days thinking about whether she made the right decision to leave her first love: teaching, in order to forget what transpired in the examinations.
A year later, Germar tested her fate again, and luckily, she passed the LET 2022. While everything is now going into the plan, she has once again asked herself: “am I for this (teaching) job?
“Don’t get me wrong, I love teaching, I love to educate, but it seems with the current situation of our education system, I don’t think I will be given a chance to practice what I’ve studied because the salary is too low and I have to provide for my family as well,” she said.
Aside from thinking about the possibilities of returning back to teaching and giving up her regular job as a BPO employee, Germar noted she has been questioning her abilities because she stopped practicing her profession.
“Maybe I’m really not meant for my dream; I’ve been asking this myself multiple times despite passing the board [exam]. Is it enough that I pass the exams to tell myself I’m good?” said Germar.
With that in mind, Germar is sure about her experiencing Imposter Syndrome.
What is Imposter Syndrome?
According to Makati Medical Center, Imposter Syndrome is a condition suffered by people who struggle to accept that their accomplishment is authentic or they are worthy of acknowledgment. They feel they are less capable than others perceive them to be.
Among a variety of employee categories, including clinicians, impostor syndrome is frequently co-occurring with depression and anxiety and is linked to reduced job performance, job satisfaction, and burnout. There is currently no published research that examines this condition’s therapies, the National Library of Medicine said.
Citing a National Library of Medicine report, Makati Medical Center said Imposter Syndrome currently has a prevalence rate of 82 percent among adolescents to late-stage professionals.
What are the signs?
According to WebMD, while Imposter Syndrome is not an “actual mental health condition,” here are the signs to look for:
Imposter syndrome could be present if you:
- Confide your ability to deceive people into thinking you are more adept than you are.
- Give other factors outside your skills credit for your success, such as charisma, networking, other people’s poor judgment, or luck.
- When you begin a task with either excessive over-preparation or with procrastination followed by frenzied planning, it is called “The Imposter Cycle,” and it occurs in both cases, it said.
You feel accomplished and relieved after completing the assignment satisfactorily. When a new task is presented, the cycle repeats, bringing back the sensations of uncertainty and worry, said the report.
How to cure Imposter syndrome?
According to the National Library of Medicine, there are no specific treatments for Imposter Syndrome, but “future research should include evaluations of treatments to mitigate impostor symptoms and its common comorbidities.”